Saturday, April 6, 2013

Cautiously Optimistic

That's what the doctor said to be after my blood draw on Thursday. Transfer was Wednesday, march 27th. Athena had bought me about 20 home pregnancy tests and I told myself I wouldn't take any until Saturday, and even that is too early to see a positive. But, in true character of my impatience, I started taking them on Friday. And kept getting disappointed. Which is silly because I *knew* I wouldn't get a positive. I *knew* it was too early. I still couldn't help myself. By Monday I was downright distraught. In my google-research I found that people have gotten positive results as early as 4 days post transfer (rare) and I was really hoping I'd be one of those lucky ones. I moped around the house all Monday annoyed that the tests weren't saying "pregnant". I was worried that it wasn't going to work at all. I was worried about having to tell Athena that we didn't get pregnant after all. I was worried that her hope and dream of another child completely I hinged on me, but there wasn't actually anything I could do about it anymore. I'd done my part and now it was a waiting game. I went to bed on Monday pretty discouraged, and I told myself I would not test again until Wednesday. Um...yeah right. Tuesday morning I woke up and decided to check "just one more time".

 

It was really faint and hard to see, but the line was there! I immediately called Athena and sent her a picture of the test. The next morning I took a digital and was blessed with this beautiful word.

Thursday morning I went into the doctor to have them confirm with a blood test what we already knew. That test did come back positive, but my beta number was a little on the low side. That's when the doc threw out the "cautiously optimistic". While my first beta is a little on the low side, everything else looks great so far. Tomorrow morning (Sunday) I go in for my second beta to see how well the numbers a rising. I've still been peeing on pregnancy sticks 3 times a day, just to make sure. The lines are getting darker and the "pregnant" keeps popping up.

So, for now I can say we are all cautiously optimistic about this pregnancy! I think I'm still in shock that it even worked!

 

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